margin

Sunday's church sermon included a lesson about margin.

We all need to create margin in our busy lives.

Filled calendars, Blackberries, IPhones, and planners often leave no time for margin.

Margin? Time for you to turn everything off. Relax. Enjoy life. Do something spontaneous.

When you say you're too busy for family, to get a cup of coffee with a friend, to walk your dog, to attend your son's soccer game, or to sleep, you're missing margin in your life.

I needed this lesson. Too often I can be seen running around the office, eating my lunch (a coffee and a banana) in between meetings, sitting behind piles of papers on my desk and on the phone until 7:30pm in my office. I am totally guilty of this. I need to make more time for spontaneous trips to visit family, phone calls to old friends, time with my dog, read the Bible...read anything non-work related, take more pictures, travel more and just learn to breathe life in every day.

a fairytale

Every girl deserves her fairytale.

A man to sweep her off her feet.

The beautiful wedding.

The white picket fence.

The little footsteps and laughter of children.

Unconditional and committed love.

And to never once feel guilty for wanting all of it.

new hair

It's amazing what a new hair cut can do for your self-esteem. I figured I am going to be 28 soon, so I needed a new do. While many people I know are excited about having a baby, I am excited for a new hair style. LOL. My time will come (I hope) for a baby. For now, I am content being excited about new hair styles, completing my masters degree (hopefully August 2012), and my dog, Ellie Mae.

horoscope

My horoscope for today...interesting.

Daily Horoscope Pisces Thursday January 27, 2011:

Your life will move, evolve, be transformed--suddenly, unexpectedly; be ready for the change. There'll be a question mark hanging over certain aspects of your work. You'll find a solution to some of your problems in a trip, a contact with foreigners. Acrimonious discussions with your children. Your heart will make a delicious leap today.

the past sneaks up on you

It happened so quickly. As I put my coat on, I looked over and saw her. I didn't even think about him. I turned around and there he was. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I quickly walked away, but I really wanted to run. Why after the trying day I had did I have to see them? As I walked away my student apologized. Why was he sorry? They destroyed my marriage.

As we stepped into the elevator, I resisted the urge to drop to the floor and sob. I didn't want my student to see me vulnerable or anything but strong and put together. I held my head high and listened to my student as he attempted to make me laugh and take my mind off of what just happened.

I got into my car and just sat there. Embarrassed. Angry. Hurt. I couldn't help it...tears streamed down my cheeks. I don't miss him. I am angry with him. I hate that I am continuously reminded of the lies that were told to me, the betrayal,  and my dissolved marriage. I don't love him. I don't hate him. I thought I had forgiven him, but I can't. I'm working on it.

This is much harder than I thought. It has been nearly 1 year since the divorce was made final....just weeks away actually.

I am happier now...than I've ever been. So, why does this still hurt? When will this go away? I am ready to move on.

I pray that I find peace with all of this (soon).

From the inside out

I needed to hear this song after the day I had today.

Marry You

I just love this song....