horoscope

My horoscope for today...interesting.

Daily Horoscope Pisces Thursday January 27, 2011:

Your life will move, evolve, be transformed--suddenly, unexpectedly; be ready for the change. There'll be a question mark hanging over certain aspects of your work. You'll find a solution to some of your problems in a trip, a contact with foreigners. Acrimonious discussions with your children. Your heart will make a delicious leap today.

the past sneaks up on you

It happened so quickly. As I put my coat on, I looked over and saw her. I didn't even think about him. I turned around and there he was. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I quickly walked away, but I really wanted to run. Why after the trying day I had did I have to see them? As I walked away my student apologized. Why was he sorry? They destroyed my marriage.

As we stepped into the elevator, I resisted the urge to drop to the floor and sob. I didn't want my student to see me vulnerable or anything but strong and put together. I held my head high and listened to my student as he attempted to make me laugh and take my mind off of what just happened.

I got into my car and just sat there. Embarrassed. Angry. Hurt. I couldn't help it...tears streamed down my cheeks. I don't miss him. I am angry with him. I hate that I am continuously reminded of the lies that were told to me, the betrayal,  and my dissolved marriage. I don't love him. I don't hate him. I thought I had forgiven him, but I can't. I'm working on it.

This is much harder than I thought. It has been nearly 1 year since the divorce was made final....just weeks away actually.

I am happier now...than I've ever been. So, why does this still hurt? When will this go away? I am ready to move on.

I pray that I find peace with all of this (soon).

From the inside out

I needed to hear this song after the day I had today.

Marry You

I just love this song....

checklists

The other day I came across a small piece of paper in my office. It was a list of to do's...a checklist.

It was obviously one of my students' who must have left it in my office.

On it read....

1. reading for some class
2. pray
3. AIA reminder

and a few other things.

What caught my attention was #2: pray.

In today's society, we have become so busy in our everyday lives that we have succumb to a life full of checklists.

I know I personally live by checklists at work. I think I have at least two going right now. My head would spin without a checklist.

But when do you draw the line with checklists?

I try to live my weekends without a checklist...with no set agenda.

Life is too short to live by them always. Right?

"When you love someone all your saved up wishes start coming out." - Elizabeth Bowen

By Your Side

I first heard this song at Gracepoint, the church I attend. I know what many people think....

"I don't listen to Christian music"...or...

"Church music?...cool? No way."

Yes way.

You'd be surprised. Take a listen.

I promise, if you don't fall in love with it, you will at least be humming it the rest of today.