Dead Flowers

Bad memories from the past seem to occur in two's for me. I feel like I can never escape.

It is not my intention to rehash what has been done to me...the hurt and the betrayal. I want to forget it all...even the happy, good memories. Why? Because they were all lies.

Once things seem to be getting better, my life is moving forward and I've forgotten about my past, it pops up out of nowhere to bring back the flood of awful memories.

One might say, "Just get over it already." Those people have never experienced the pain, dishonesty, and disloyalty that I did. I would never wish that kind of hurt on anyone.

Tomorrow's a new day...I pray that it's better.

Perception

We can always choose to perceive things differently. You can focus on what's wrong in your life, or you can focus on what's right. - Williamson

I needed this quote. Thanks to J.Penn for posting. :)

Risks...

If it's still in your mind, it is worth taking the risk. (Cuehlo)

My entire life, I have played it safe.

I was never that kid climbing to the top of trees or jumping off bridges into the lake.

I wasn't a "prissy" girl growing up, I was a safe little girl.

I didn't want to get hurt.

I was afraid.

Today, I am still afraid.

Terrified.

....of heights, bridges, bats, and getting my heart broken.

No matter what you do....

No matter how hard you work at something...

No matter how much of your heart, your love, yourself you give to someone...

...your heart can still be broken.

So, I have protected my heart.

But I can't run away forever, right?

Love can be risky, but if you feel it, then jump.

Dive head first.

If it's real...love will be there to catch you.

Ready for the weekend...

I am so ready for the weekend....Labor Day weekend at that. Too bad the University doesn't give us Labor day off. Oh well. My weekend plans include relaxing, reading for grad classes, baking, then church, BBQ and bags with friends on Sunday.

My weekends lately have consisted of spending time here in Valpo with friends and M.M. I have started to really miss my family back in Michigan. It has been awhile (since July!) that I last saw them. I won't see them again until October because of the University events I am planning to attend and be involved in this month. B-U-S-Y! I'm ready to see them. I know my mama is going crazy not seeing me. October 8-10 will be a great weekend. :)

A few holes in the road...

"I just think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It's the universe's way of providing contrast, you know? There has to be a few holes in the road. It's how life is." - Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

'Make You Feel My Love'

Be an example...

‎"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity." 1 Timothy 4:12