No one wants to say the "D" word in a marriage...

Divorce. It's not something I ever thought I'd say I'm going through, but I unfortunately I am. No one plans to get divorced when they say "I do."

My wedding day was like a fairytale. The day was absolutely perfect. I can't say the same about my marriage. 5 years together and married for less than a year and a half when divorce papers were filed.

Whether a divorce occurs because someone has simply fallen out of love, you've grown apart, infidelity, abuse or addiction, it is never easy no matter what the cause. It is heart breaking, at least it was for me.

Questions swarmed around in my head....what did I do wrong? was I not a good wife? did I not love him enough? was I not beautiful enough? smart enough? what was wrong with me?

Why is it that we automatically blame ourselves in cases like this?

So, what is my plan now? Who goes into a marriage with a Plan B? I didn't. I thought I was going to live my happily ever after. It's back to reality for me.

In order to move forward, I learned that grieving is natural and necessary. For some this might be longer than others. There is no set time limit. I grieved and grieved hard and long for a few months until I found myself not crying every day and then not at all.

Writing for me is therapeutic and I hope others find comfort in reading about my experience and life after divorce. I'm sure there will be good days, bad days, funny stories, and adventures along the way. I am looking forward to starting over...starting fresh...learning about myself and what life has to offer.