Some Things....

"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves." Greys Anatomy

As the days draw closer to June, to what would have been my 2nd wedding anniversary, my heart begins to ache all over again.

You might think as time goes on, it would get easier, but I'm discovering that it's not.

There are good days and there are bad.

I've had more "bad" days lately.

To everyone, I seem fine (on the outside), but I'm finding it's becoming more difficult for me to hide as June quickly approaches.

I try not to talk about it. I try to simply forget about it all.

It's the memories of my best friend, the wedding vows, the plans we made, and the life I thought I was living that hurts the most.

I've tried to "escape" the memories by diving back into dating...working out...spending more time at work...hanging out with family and friends, but there's no escaping.

It doesn't matter how many miles I run, how many "girls night out" with friends I have, how many dates I go on, how many pairs of shoes I buy or how many hours I spend at the office, nothing can heal my heart.

All of those things are simply "band aids".